Friday, March 12, 2010

Its in the Eye

I never get to see Oprah because I work until six in the evening...but I had been wanting to see Jessica Simpson on Oprah because I think that she is fabulous.  Its just weird that I like her and Beyonce unconditionally.  Even though they disappoint me sometimes.  I wont get on my soapbox about them, they are human and are imperfect like the rest of us!

Anyways, I wanted to see this interview and I thought it was worth a share.  Just a reaffirmation that BEAUTY is whatever I say it is as it pertains to me!  Its whats is on the inside...its who I am.  Kanye said it best...."the prettiest people do the ugliest things, on the road to riches and diamond rings..."  Well doesn't that just make you ugly.  I'd say...yes.

I think about how my self esteem is all wrapped up in me losing weight instead of me just trying to be healthy and live a long active life.  I think about how I have tricked myself into not really seeing my reflection in the my mind I am still a size 14 not a size 20.  I just need to accept who I am now, embrace me.  I think about the real come to Jesus battle that getting healthy has become and Im grateful that I have another day to try again.  My mother's blood pressure was so high it caused her brain to rupture over five years ago.  She is fine now but will never be the same physically and will be on dialysis until she can get on the list for kidneys.  I don't want to die prematurely later because I don't want to do the work now.  Thats ridiculous.

With that said...this is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.  And thats kind of sad.  I should be saying that climbing Mount Everest (never done) or learning Advanced Calculus (struggled but done) is the hardest thing I have ever had to do!  But losing weight...???

I say loving yourself, is taking care of yourself.  Mind.  Body. Spirit.  There is beauty in TRUTH...where ever it may be found.  Being true to yourself...and being authentic...that is where it's at.  And if that is where it's means that they were right.  Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

**EDIT** Here is Jessica's new show on VH1 called "The Price of Beauty"....LOVE IT!


  1. aaahhhh, as spoken by a TRUTH WOMAN! It really is hard loosing weight and there is no denying that! I know exactly what you are struggling with and I know that your clarity will come to you soon. And the desires of your heart for a healthy lifestyle will take over. I see health for you, no matter what you see in the mirror. And remember, the reflection starringback at you is yours no matter what, so just love it. Thats what I remind myself often.

  2. thanks for the inspirational words ms. e! ure a dose of "oprah" to me cuz i dont get to watch her too!


    at least there's ms. e! ;-)