What can I say, I am back.
I have no idea what direction I want to take this space. I have time to figure that out right? 2014 was full of loss. My mother passed away on January 21 and my oldest dearest friend Jennifer passed away a few days later. I had to be strong but that only lasted for a week. I broke down about a week after her funeral and spent a whole year wading through my life. Trying to figure out how to be a wife, mom, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, cousin and employee without two women who meant so much to me was a challenge,
With the devastation came my inability to take care of myself. I am not making excuses. I let myself go. All the way. I am embarrassed to even put pictures of myself on social media because I am a mess.
On New Years Day I had a break through camouflaged as a breakdown and decided that I would honor my mother by living, loving, and taking care of myself. I have a three year old who needs me to be there for her through many stages and phases. I can not do that in this body. This space will not be dedicated to weight loss. Just getting my life in order. It has been awhile since I wrote just for the fun of it. So here we go!