Sunday, February 15, 2015

My Name is Erica

What can I say, I am back.

I have no idea what direction I want to take this space.  I have time to figure that out right?  2014 was full of loss.  My mother passed away on January 21 and my oldest dearest friend Jennifer passed away a few days later.  I had to be strong but that only lasted for a week.   I broke down about a week after her funeral and spent a whole year wading through my life.  Trying to figure out how to be a wife, mom, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, cousin and employee without two women who meant so much to me was a challenge,

With the devastation came my inability to take care of myself.  I am not making excuses. I let myself go.  All the way.  I am embarrassed to even put pictures of myself on social media because I am a mess.

On New Years Day I had a break through camouflaged as a breakdown and decided that I would honor my mother by living, loving, and taking care of myself.  I have a three year old who needs me to be there for her through many stages and phases.  I can not do that in this body.  This space will not be dedicated to weight loss.  Just getting my life in order.  It has been awhile since I wrote just for the fun of it.  So here we go!

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