Thursday, May 26, 2011

Watcher

So i am on my second week with Weight Watchers online.  I could not bring myself to go to meetings, and I do not like people in my stuff (especially those I don't know).  Thats why I have a blog.  SARCASM.

Anyways I am logging everything I eat, having delicious healthy snacks and planning my meals.  I am going to start yoga when my schedule changes on June 6th.  The only thing I have not done is buy a scale. I know crazy right.  Im constantly aware of what I am putting in my mouth but I am not aware of how much I weigh unless I go to the doctor.  (Buying a scale tomorrow...CHECK)

Honestly, I just went to the doctor and I am morbidly obese.  It sounds weird saying it.  When I tell people I wear a size 20 they never believe me.  But I weigh 255 pounds, and my health was suffering because I refused to take the initiative to do better.  I can not even believe that I typed that number.  255.  255.  255.  And I was 280 two years ago.

Im ready for this new me, and Im feeling good.  (As JHUD says in her video.)   I love all the recipes and ideas available at other blogs and I need something else to focus on.

Right now Im working my business model so that I can jump into the big world of ebusiness.  Someone who came out of the same womb as me 6 years later had the audacity to tell me that she has always wanted more for my life than what I do right now.  The nerve of her!  I have never been more hurt in my life.  Never.  But Im not my career or lack there of.  That doesn't define me.  Being a woman, wife, sister and friend all trump some grand career.  I just want happiness and I have that so I am winning.

Give me a virtual hug guys...Im having a tough day.  

2 comments:

  1. I agree, my career definitely does not define me. It's a small part of who I am, a means to an end. I'm happy that you are making changes to better your health! You inspire me :) Loves!

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