Keep The Old...

I remember when I was in Girl Scouts (Brownies to be specific), we used to sing a song that went, "Make new friends but keep the old, one is silver and the others gold. A wheel is round that never ends, that's how long I'll be your friend!"

Im blessed to have such well rounded, gorgeous, intelligent, fun friends! Even though we may not see each other all the time or talk all the time...it doesnt diminish our love for one another!

Jennifer keep your head up. You are the siz-nit...no matter what!

Diane came to nashville and I am so glad I got to see her and meet her Dr. McHottie! We have been friends since the second grade. And always seem to meet up every few years in a place coffee and muffins are served!

Hanging out with Diane makes me long for more familiar faces! But I have to put on my big girl panties and stick it out in Nashvegas for the time being!!!

Barbados

Sooo...what can I say about my trip. I went to Barbados...and then it was time to go home. We had fun but it was more of a self exploration. There is something about standing on a cliff overlooking the ocean and being engulfed in a serenity, a calm if you will. I feel like I came back..wiser and stronger. Just because I had some issues, some things I was dealing with that I had to let go of.

1. Will I ever graduate from college?


1a. I came back went to the human resources office and got a tuition reimbursement paper. I was going to sign up for classes starting this summer. Id be a great teacher I told myself. But the calmer, stronger, more courageous me said..."you don't want to be a teacher". I know what I want to do. I want to design clothing for plus sized women. I have been dreaming about doing it for years. I know I dont want to be a teacher but I was getting ready to settle for it. (Why do we settle for less than the best/our best?) Instead on my lunch I went to the computer haven, got online and got info to sign up for the next sewing class. Its February 5th at Joanns Fabric. Im excited, im nervous, im going to walk toward my dream. It is a slower processes than running but i will eventually get there.

2. Will I be fat all my life?

2a. Hopefully not. But Im fat now and thats all there is to it. When I get ready I will get back into shape. But I need to accept where I am and be happy in this skin, and love myself regardless. Im pretty smoking hot! How do I know this? Well Q tells me all the time, men try to pick me up with my wedding ring shining, but I just know. Im a beautiful person...inside and out. I have to tell myself this and believe it.

3. Will I ever get out of Nashville?

3a. Do I really care where I am? I am with the man I love and who loves me back. I can visit my family and when I have kids I can just send them with my parents during the summer. I was in Maryland and I was miserable so why am I trying to go back there so bad. Ive been blessed in Nashville, so as long as Im here I need to make the best of it and enjoy my surroundings.

I processed through a lot of other stuff but those are the main things that were plaguing me. None of it defines me though so its whatever. Life is too short for me to be worrying about stuff thats not even important. Im working on having faith and being content in 2009.

So for a few pictures!!!



















I was so busy taking pictures of everything and everyone else I barely got any of me. But here I am!!! It was soooo hot earlier in the day...my makeup slid off immediately! But its Barbados...who cares.




















Melissa and Evan got married on a cliff overlooking the sea. It was absolutely breathtaking! Everything was beautiful...




We did a Catamaran Tour around the waters of Barbados. I have always wanted to do it. I snorkled and swam with the turtles. I wore my bathing suit in the water without a cover up for the first time ever!!! I really had a great time besides the wedding this was another great part of the trip!


This is the day before we left the island. It rained all day and I had an emotional breakdown that evening. I sat outside of a restaurant on the phone with my husband sobbing like nobodies business. Im glad because through it all this smile emerged!!!!

When I get all the pics I will post some more of the sights...the lush vegetation and serene yet savage waters of Barbados!

Im Back...

I'm so glad to be home because i really missed my husband and the internet. I will put up pics at a later time. And considering the fact that i hvent even gotten my wedding pictures yet...that time may be never.

So Q and I just had a movie marathon...we watched "Taken" which was excellent...."My Best Friends Girl" which wasnt as good as hitch...and "How to Lose Friends and Alienate People" which I rather enjoyed. All good though...Taken was my favorite even though I hate suspend. Liam Neilson KILLLED it! He was better than James Bond.

I worked today...la la la lala la. At least I have a job. This is my rationale...it gets me through the day...and each day I live for Friday. Its my existence. By nine pm Im not really listening to customers...or talking to them. If you call T-mobile and happen to get me on the phone from nine to nine thirty I will give you anything you want because I dont care I just want you off my phone so I can go home. Most calls I get after nine I try to stretch out so I have to talk to less people.

Anyways...I digress.

Im leaving for Barbados on Wednesday...for my super long vacay. Yeah I will be back on Sunday night. This trip is for Melissa's wedding. It doesnt seem like fun...honestly Im sad because Q can't come. But we scrimped and saved so I could go. He ordered some new PS3 games since he is letting me take the PSP on the trip with me. My husband is so sweet to me.

Anyways I will take lots of pictures and post them when I get back! Toodles!

Happy New Year

Sooooo....I finally changed my name legally. Today Q took me to the Social Security Administration to change my name! I also took a new passport photo...that is super UG!!!

So from the officially Mrs. Clay...

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!

Have Yourself...

....A MERRY LITTLE CHRISTMAS!!!!

Yeah thats all the excitement I have available for the holiday season. I was so sad last night because I hate not being with my family on the holidays. By my family I mean mine or Q's...either one I will take. We have invites to go other places but its not the same being with someone else's family. Where you barely know people and the conversation is awkward. I dont want to spend my holiday trying not to look out of place, bored, and uninterested. I mean why do I have to fein interest in anything that is playing on television?!!!!

Yeah we are staying home. I just made my final decision. Im making Lemon peper salmon, mac & cheese, corn casserole and veggies in a butter cream sauce. Yeah nothing lowfat here...lowfat is lame. For real. Especially on Christmas. Im probably going to either make some baked apples or honeybun cake a little later.

Thanks T-Mobile for giving us the day off to spend with our loved ones...or in my case one.

Merry Christmas!!!

Happy Holidays

So here I sit, signing and addressing Christmas cards. I am thinking Im late sending out cards, but I havent gotten any so maybe im sitting down right in the nick of time to get these sent out.

Its funny that I dont have much to say right now. I go through my day and normally think..."ooo yeah I can blog about this..." But I always forget. Go figure.

I was sick today at work and couldnt stay. Im home now. I feel crappy but its all good. I have stuff to do anyways. Im still on the fence about getting a Christmas tree. We will see! I might be putting one up on Christmas Eve...

I miss my family so much and I miss my friends. I will keep you all in my prayers.

P.S. Im going to be crocheting this weekend. I need to get on to the next stitch!!!!