Friday, June 26, 2009

Me Fat and Fabulous

Soooo one of my new most favoritest blogs Young Fat and Fabulous had totally opened my eyes to the choices that are out there for me...and my wanna be fashionista self.

Granted I am not the stiletto wearing, attention grabbing type. Im more the low key, not really trying yet stunning type but whatever I am or choose to be on any given day is alright...better than alright actually...more like FABULOUS. I mean the thing I love about the Fat and Fabulous community is that they appreciate and celebrate everyone and understand that there is room for us all!

So Im really excited about getting back into my size 16's soon and just being healthy and in shape (not skinny because its just not me). I know it seems like all I talk about is my weight. Well its just that I have a lot of cute stuff, all of it this size, and I'm going to wear it again!

I mean I have been struggling my whole life to find peace in my own body. Even though my husband tells me how sexy I am all day every day, I still struggle. So when my mom tells me she thinks I need to lose weight, and I end up snapping back with tears running down my face, "that Im trying but its really hard" it helps to find a community that accepts and is aware of the struggle associated with being a plus sized woman in this society. Ok enough with my sob story. ::hopsofsoapbox::

With that said.

Isnt this whole neon thing so cute. I feel as though I am too old to wear it but the shoes and tops I would definitely wear. Lucky I dont look my age anyways!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Back in Business Bay-bee

Target. Who knew. Go figure.

Went to my local Target this weekend. I went to get Q a King Sized CRUNCH Bar. I walked in the door and decided to go to the Women's (plus sized) section even though I had a feeling I'd be disappointed yet again. So I'm walking to the back thinking "There so wont be anything back here..."

And then there was.

They had Maxi Dresses and Jeans and Cute Tops and the bathing suit I wanted online and had planned on ordering but didn't want to deal with the "what if it doesn't work and I have to send it back" issue. Oh they had skirts and more cute tops.

Well I hope this is not a temporary thing. I can pass the word on to my other curvy bodacious chics that Target is doing better so we can shop there again (even though I never really stopped).

Funny how now that I am working out all the time and have lost five pounds (and counting) Target decides to get a clue. But its cool. I may end up back in my size 14 but there are still other confidently curvy women out there who need to have options!

Thank you Target. I now know that my letters and concerns don't go unheard! As much as I talk about Target you would think that this is what my blog is about.

Anyways I'm feverishly sending out resumes. I have concluded that working out has improved my mood, given me the pep back in my step I so desperately needed and solidified my resolve to search for a company who's values fall in line with mine (or vice-versa).

Signing off...

Friday, June 19, 2009

Im Baaaack!

Well I haven't actually been anywhere. Just moping and feeling sorry for myself. But We finally made use of our YMCA membership this week. Some days are better than others. I hate working out...I prefer to sit around doing nothing. BUT I have been getting my cardio in and I did water aerobics (my hair is a wreck!). OMG its fun and pretty challenging it you challenge yourself. (MY HAIR IS A WRECK!!!!!!)

So we sent daddy a gift from Harry & David. I mean he doesn't need anything else. If I had been thinking I would've sent him a new grill from home depot online. But I didn't think about it. He hasn't gotten it...should've been there by now. (IM calling them now...) So I called and they are talking about it wont get there until Monday. Well maybe you need to make sure to specify that on the web page so that people will know that last day to ship something and get it there without doing priority was the 12th not the 13th! I just sent them a email expressing my disgust.


On another note. Work is going well. I am more motivated than ever to do something else and have pretty much figured out what that something else is. My husband said something to me the other day that really turned a light bulb on in my head. He said he was starting to figure me out. That it takes me going low or failing or doing bad to motivate me to do my best. Its true. I'm learning my inconsistency is a hindrance but also what gets me going. I guess you cant appreciate the highs without the lows. Id better start appreciating because all I seem to have are highs and gray area. I guess thats what makes me the genius I am.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Too Lazy for Words...

I thought I was ready...but Im not. Im twenty nine and was sick with baby fever. But Im really lazy. Like I dont want to do anything but sit around all day watching HGTV and Keepin' Up With the Kardashians!

I tell myself its because I dont want to be invested in this part of my life. The time to suck it up and make sacrifice and start working hard like I NEVER have part. The living up to my potential part. The part where I get it together start figuring out what Im going to do knowing that I dont have what it takes to get stuck in my current dead end job.

I did laundry two weeks ago...but I put all the clothes back in the basket and the rest on the big chair. Now I folded everything up. But why didnt I take a minute to put it away. Why am I sitting here right now...looking at it. Why do I have no intention what so ever of putting it away and getting my room together. I want to throw away all of my clothes so I dont have to wash them and put them away. The crazy part about it all is my husband could care less that I am a horrible housewife. Im sucking right now and feel like I need to step my game up...but I wont.

Knowing that I have all these clothes...why am I thinking about going to the mall to see what else I can find. Whats wrong with me. Am I depressed or something. Maybe our cruise in July will be the pick me up I need to get it together. We will see.

I need a pedi...its been two weeks. Im going to do that now. See ya laterz.